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Yes yes, I'm back for another round of me writing terrible poetry and readin what people think. Say it was the worst thing you read if you have to, i love critism, it'll only help you get better.
The clock goes off into my abandoned ears
my body rises as i throw up broken glass
i exit my tomb and creep down the unapprecdiated steps
the sun slaps my face unwarned
my feet move in beat of two's
my heart thumps as fast as an 80 year old man's
my vision is unclear like someone threw blood in my eyes
the wind is passing through my weary hands
i crawl to the street
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| Time: | 2:09 am. |
| Mood: | annoyed. | | Music: | Bright Eyes - A Perfect Sonnet. |
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i'm sick of people
i'm sick of school
i'm sick of work
i'm sick of moving
i'm sick of being a bad musician
i'm sick of being mean
i'm sick of being nice
I'M SICK
and i'm not a in play exposing it
i'm god's child
i'm a martyr
i have no faith
i don't believe
there's nothing anyone can do to change that
i contradict my words
my thoughts
my dreams
i'm sick of writing free verse poetry in my live journal that is depressing
but i must
that's why i'm here
i'll be writing till i have no more air to breath
i will never be silenced as long as i have music
as long as i have poetry
as long as i have paper/computer screen
i'll admitt that i'm not the most ideal teenager
no one is
and beileve these next words that will be capitalized for a more intense effect
THERE IS A THING CALLED HAPPINESS, BUT TRUE HAPPINESS ISN'T PRODUCED BY LOVE FROM ANOTHER PERSON, IT'S PRODUCED BY WAKING UP EVERY MORNING AND KNOWING YOU LOVE YOURSELF
if only it was that simple
for we all have/are low esteem/acne/too short/too tall/ugly/fat/skinny/hate ourselves
i hope you found it
for wishing on lucky stars just keeps you up all night
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| Time: | 11:51 am. |
| Mood: | calm. | | Music: | Poison The Well - The Realist. |
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the skin is ripped apart
the hand is cut open
the head is bleeding for air
i didn't know falling from a five story building could do so much
i must have lost control
i must have been confused with ledges and bridges
i thought i was going somewhere else
but instead i stayed in the same place
on the same curb
on the same street
right back where i've been
barely alive on the ground
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| Time: | 9:53 pm. |
| Mood: | cold. | | Music: | Darkest Hour - The Sadist Nation. |
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wooooooo doggy, i haven't updated this bad boy in ages, AGES. I've been too busy with school and work and playin show i've totally forgot about my journal. So let me recap for all of you whats happened in last 3 months: My band and I are now on a local band sponsership called Papercut Productions, we've done two shows they've booked and about to do a 3rd in April. School's been doin ok besides the whole senflug bein a bitch thing. Blockbuster is fun and easy and long, they give me free movies. so it has its perks. I'm still writing songs and poetry, i'll be updating more on here now, the band is tryin to earn money for a new 4 song demo, it's exciting times right now. Well anyway, I hope everyone has a pleasant night and don't forget, slap bitches if they steal ya dough, playboy.
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Sunday, January 11th, 2004
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i never said i'd love my life
i never said i'd die for my sins
i never said i was a great writer
i never said i was a great musician
i never said i would save every person that is innocent
i never said i was innocent
i never said i wouldn't break hearts
i never said i'd do it for no reason
i never said i would be a great friend
i never said i'm be a great person
but i'm trying
i'm really trying
for lately i've been hating everything i do
and everything i say
i wish that i wasn't the person i am
for then i wouldn't be writing about it
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Monday, January 5th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:43 pm. |
| Mood: | creative. | | Music: | New Found Glory - Broken Sound. |
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bleeding dry under a drunken moonlight
getting high off of family fights
having nothing left to give
having no other reason to live
i'm still here
breathing in every piece of air
like a puzzle
my life comes together and falls apart
through all the good times and breaking of hearts
i'm still here
but oh merciless god
why torture a poor soul like mine?
why choose who live and let die?
why must i bleed under every drunken moonlight?
i guess there is no god i may speaking to
just a pretend make believe father of a savior
if your son is such a savior
why hasn't he saved the starving, dying people in this world?
"he must be testing us" they say
if so, then that's no god i want to love
that's a pretty fucked up god
i'll give you something to believe in, believe in yourselves
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Thursday, December 4th, 2003
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salt to wounds: so how are you on this beautiful frigid night?
mAkeitCoUNT9988: im a cheerfully cheering
mAkeitCoUNT9988: yourself?
salt to wounds: ima dancefully dancing
salt to wounds: wooo were gay..
salt to wounds: it feels good
mAkeitCoUNT9988: oh, so so good
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Sunday, November 30th, 2003
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| Time: | 2:00 pm. |
| Mood: | chipper. | | Music: | As I Lay Dying - Elegy. |
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Last night was the show with the band I'm in (Ever Since Yesterday) and Zero By Demand. It went pretty well, i had a good tizime. I hope everyone who came did too. And for all of ya who be askin, "YO, when is ESY gonna have a website?" Well, it's gonna be up in December, so suck dat. I love you all, and i hope you have a good last day of November. PEACEE
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Friday, November 28th, 2003
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1. Nirvana- no
2. Sublime- no
3. Depeche Mode- no
4. Linkin Park- no
5. No Doubt- no
6. Rage Against the Machine- yes
7. U2- no
8. Green Day- yes
9. Beastie Boys- yes
10. Red Hot Chili Peppers- no
11. Blink-182- yes
12. System of a Down- yes
13. The Smashing Pumpkins- yes
14. Korn- no
15. Bob Marley- no
16. Metallica- no
17. The Offspring- no
18. The Cure- yes
19. Incubus- no
20. Stone Temple Pilots- no
21. Pearl Jam- no
22. Tool- no
23. Radiohead- yes
24. 311- no
25. Nine Inch Nails- no
26. Weezer- yes
27. Social Distortion- no
28. The Smiths/Morrissey- yes
29. Jane's Addiction- no
30. Oingo Boingo- no
31. Alice In Chains- no
32. Limp Bizkit- no
33. The Clash- yes
34. Dave Matthews Band- no
35. Creed- no
36. The Ramones- yes
37. Staind- no
38. R.E.M.- no
39. Bush- yes
40. Bad Religion- yes
41. Foo Fighters- no
42. New Order- no
43. Soundgarden- no
44. Garbage- no
45. Pennywise- yes
46. Violent Femmes- yes
47. Rob Zombie/White Zombie- no
48. David Bowie- no
49. Godsmack- no
50. Duran Duran- yes
51. P.O.D.- no
52. Coldplay- yes
53. Beck- no
54. Eminem- no
55. Deftones- no
56. Cypress Hill- no
57. Oasis- yes
58. Jimmy Eat World- yes
59. Tori Amos- no
60. Moby- no
61. The Pixies- no
62. Blondie- no
63. Live- no
64. Hole- no
65. Rancid- yes
66. Fatboy Slim- yes
67. Siouxsie and the Banshees- no
68. Marilyn Manson- no
69. Save Ferris- yes
70. The Sex Pistols- yes
71. Disturbed- no
72. Billy Idol- yes
73. The Strokes- yes
74. The Police- yes
75. Primus- no
76. The Go-Go's- no
77. Everclear- yes
78. Bjork- no
79. Dramarama- no
80. Prodigy- yes
81. The Cult- no
82. Cake- no
83. MxPx- yes
84. Third Eye Blind- no
85. Sum 41- yes
86. Travis- no
87. Papa Roach- no
88. Devo- yes
89. A Perfect Circle- no
90. New Found Glory- yes
91. The Cranberries- no
92. Lit- yes
93. The B-52's- no
94. Puddle of Mudd- no
95. Blur- yes
96. Unwritten Law- yes
97. Pet Shop Boys- no
98. Hoobastank- no
99. X- xibit- no
100. Lenny Kravitz- no
101. Adema- no
102. Echo & the Bunnymen- no
103. Kid Rock- no
104. INXS- no
105. Everlast/House of Pain- no
106. Faith No More- no
107. Ozzy Osbourne- no
108. Mindless Self Indulgence- yes
109. Pantera - no
110. Good Charlotte- no
111. Letters to Cleo- yes
112. OK Go- yes
113. Eiffel 65- no
114. Veruca Salt- no
115. Taking Back Sunday - yes
116. Sugarcult- yes
117. Alkaline Trio - YES
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Saturday, August 30th, 2003
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| Time: | 1:46 pm. |
| Mood: | excited. | | Music: | This Day Forward - Writing in Cursive. |
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so tonight's the atreyu/darkest hour/underoath, i'm highly excited, if only dallas was there. but hopefully the new lead singer of underoath will be good. and if he's not good there's always atreyu. peace.
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Saturday, August 23rd, 2003
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| Time: | 1:08 am. |
| Mood: | okay. | | Music: | The Blood Brothers - Guitarmy. |
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AvrilLyckMyBalls: you rock dont ever change
EVERYTIMEieatpie: word?
AvrilLyckMyBalls: yes
EVERYTIMEieatpie: why do i rock?
AvrilLyckMyBalls: bcoz youre my poodle
EVERYTIMEieatpie: oh, that makes sense
EVERYTIMEieatpie: not really
AvrilLyckMyBalls: i know
AvrilLyckMyBalls: just be quiet
EVERYTIMEieatpie: ok
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Friday, August 22nd, 2003
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| Time: | 5:49 pm. |
| Mood: | artistic. | | Music: | Every Time I Die - She's My Rushmore. |
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i'm sick of the stereotypes
sick of the fights
sick of the words nigger and fag
this is breaking my heart
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Tuesday, August 19th, 2003
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| Time: | 6:22 pm. |
| Mood: | silly. | | Music: | The Rocket Summer - Cross My Heart. |
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CrossPunisher21X: sup fool
EVERYTIMEieatpie: chillin dawg
EVERYTIMEieatpie: you?
CrossPunisher21X: same
CrossPunisher21X: and getting a headache from the paint fumes
EVERYTIMEieatpie: right on
CrossPunisher21X: yep
CrossPunisher21X: i asked the children fundation if i could donate my child
EVERYTIMEieatpie: did they accept?
CrossPunisher21X: no, they hung up
CrossPunisher21X: i need to ditch the kid
EVERYTIMEieatpie: oh
CrossPunisher21X: its cheaper than an abortion...and less guilt
EVERYTIMEieatpie: kick him in the head
EVERYTIMEieatpie: wait, did you impregnate somebody?
CrossPunisher21X: nah, no beating of the kids. dont wanna scar them for life. maybe i can drop them off with goodwill
CrossPunisher21X: no
EVERYTIMEieatpie: oh
EVERYTIMEieatpie: ok
EVERYTIMEieatpie: then whos the kid?
CrossPunisher21X: im joking
EVERYTIMEieatpie: oh
EVERYTIMEieatpie: man, im on dope
CrossPunisher21X: indeed
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Wednesday, August 13th, 2003
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Tuesday, August 12th, 2003
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these past few months feel as if i've been standing still
i've been stuck in a ditch
with everyone telling me to get out
but i have no strength in these bones
i'm doubtful of success in things to come
i'm asked of too much
and i'm only one person
i can't be your savior all the time
i can't be around every hour of the day
i can't always be with him or her or you
i didn't know i meant so much
i didn't know my head could explode so much
so goodbye precious summer
i hope next year you'll bring more sunshine to a wreck like me
hello bitter fall
i hope you will be kind to me
but i'm putting my bet on you showing no mercy
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Thursday, August 7th, 2003
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| Time: | 5:02 pm. |
| Mood: | bored. | | Music: | Taking Back Sunday - Ghost Man on Third. |
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Ten bands/artists you couldn't live without:
[1] Blink 182
[2] Alkaline Trio
[3] Underoath
[4] Brand New
[5] Poison The Well
[6] Taking Back Sunday
[7] Anti-Flag
[8] New Found Glory
[9] The Ataris
[10] MxPx
Nine albums that are important to you:
[1] Poison The Well - The Opposite of December
[2] Blink 182 - Dude Ranch
[3] Alkaline Trio - From Here To Infirmary
[4] Underoath - The Changing of Times
[5] Taking Back Sunday - Tell All Your Friends
[6] Every Time I Die - Last Night in Town
[7] Brand New - Deja Entendu
[8] Atreyu - Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kisses
[9] The Get Up Kids - Something To Write Home About
Six of your favorite songs(currently)
[1] A Static Lullaby - Withered
[2] Brand New - Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't
[3] Moneen - Are We Really Happy With Who We Are Right Now?
[4] Hot Hot Heat - Oh, Goddamnit
[5] Hatebreed - A Call For Blood
[6] Alkaline Trio - Queen of Pain
Three albums you've bought recently:
[1] Brand New - Deja Entendu
[2] A Static Lullaby - And Don't Forget To Breathe
[3] Hatebreed - Perseverance
Two Artists you would like to do the NASTY with:
[1] The Lead Singer of Tsunami Bomb
[2] Britany of course
One band whose music would be described as writing the soundtrack of your life
[1] Blink 182
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Tuesday, August 5th, 2003
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i saw your head hit the floor
i went out and shut the door
i swear i loved you more than anything
but it had to be done
you knew too much
you knew too much about me
i had to light your bedroom ablaze
i swear i loved you more than anything
i wish you hadn't of known so much
i told you too much
it had to be done
your skin was beautiful
your eyes made me alive
now it's all burnt, all decayed
i swear i loved you more than anything
love is hate, and i loved you to death
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| Time: | 4:35 pm. |
| Mood: | sleepy. | | Music: | A Static Lullaby - Charred Fields of Snow. |
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The B-Movie That Suits Me Is:
Flesh Gordon: In the 70's 'big budget' porns were all the rage. These hybrids combined b-movie sets and scripts with humpalicious action, while not hardcore like modern stuff. The ultimate was Flesh Gordon, now regarded as a comedy.
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